
Seeing authors speak is among my favorite things. In fact, if I were to compose my own Sound-of-Music version of “My Favorite Things,” it might include a line like, “Raindrops on windows and good books worth reading, Mittens on kittens and writers worth meeting… (these are a few of my favorite things).
This week, I was quite beside myself because I got to meet Nicole Krauss, the author of my most favorite novel, The History of Love. Ms. Krauss is elegant in a simple way, with an audiobook voice (the good kind). Listening to her speak and share, I just wanted to linger there in that sound. As part of Butler University’s Visiting Writers series, after the final Q & A time came the chance for book signing. My husband, friends & I were near first in line, as we had come with our own copies while others bought their books. Thus, I was not given much time to think about what on earth I could say to Ms. Krauss, whose words had certainly impacted me to a depth of meaning that’s hard to express in one brief encounter.
I should mention here that this situation was not a new one. Working in a library had provided a handful of similar opportunities, where I felt a sort of attachment to even writers I had not heard of before, and wanted desperately to separate myself from the rest of the audience, especially the ones who raised their hands with pretentious questions. Please, I’d beg of them, Pipe down! It’s not about you. I wanted only to listen to the words of the writer– it was their moment.
The whole concept of autographing is troubling to me. Yes, it’s nice to have a respected name written in indelible ink, part nostalgia and part evidence that you were, at one point, in the same room as this respected person, sharing the same air.
On the other hand, it feels cheap in a way; the only way to share face time with the Honored Guest is the same way as anyone else. We aren’t as much individuals as we are fans. And we’re all the number one fan, right?
I realize that there are others out there who also claim The History of Love as theirs–the one piece of literature that transformed their life and thinking. But part of me still wants to emerge, to separate–to claim it differently.
What do you say, then, to the author who changed everything, who’s now right before you?
“I share this book with friends to an evangelical amount.”
Because it’s true. And then you smile.
And aside from other blurriness that typically surmounts in these types of moments, I remember her smiling back, and I felt it was genuine–that hopefully, somehow, she could sense that my possibly hyperbolic comment was also genuine. And it was. I own more copies of that book than Barnes & Noble. I lend these copies to hands who’ll take them, endorsing them with rightful and honest praise.
Later, I laughed a little at myself: Evangelical? I said that? Was that too much?
Laughing back, my dear husband assured me, “I bet you were memorable.”
And I thanked him for saying that.
Memorable or not, I will keep on praising this book and these words, this gospel of readers and writers that must keep circling.